This past week I ran smack dab into reality. Joshua had worked so hard for five weeks in the cold doing a job in the construction industry that we both left in pursuit of our dreams. He did this to get ahead on bills coming up, pay for our stay for a couple weeks so we could focus our energy on writing, recording our own music. This is something we have talked about doing for awhile and we are usually hustling so much earning just enough to get by all while doing what we love, travel, performing, bringing joy to others. Don't get me wrong...I am not complaining just painting a picture for my point.
When we left on this journey, we had doubts and believe it or not more money and "security" than what it would appear to be right now...ironic really lol. Our level of fear, doubt has not grown just become different. In fact with each new exciting step things would appear that we are more unstable now than we have ever been and yet our faith is bigger than we ever thought possible. Our reactions are night and day different than what they started out being when we began this journey. We had regular unemployment checks coming in when we left, enough for our bills (just enough) each month and we kept creating. We had more time than what we do now and yet we were so worried about the money we didn't take the time to enjoy the time we had. Now, when we have time, we know how precious it is and soak it up. We are creating more money, gigs, opportunities than we would have ever thought possible in such a short amount of time. Although, at times it feels like everything is moving so slow...the amount of progress and growth we have is light years ahead of most that have had the courage to venture out to follow their dreams of making a living through music and HERE WE ARE!
Our doubts come and go...not being able to pay our bills, are we good enough, are we doing everything "right", will others like us, am I too old to be doing this, will our band grow and prosper, will we have sponsors...the list goes on! And then I get a message through someone that encourages me to keep going and that what I am doing is exactly what I am supposed to be doing and it will all be worth it!
Everyday my faith is tested...there are days I think to myself "life would be easier if you just get a regular job and settle down" and then my heart says "keep going you don't want to miss what's coming up next!"
Joshua talks about a bible verse in regards to storing Mana....we live each day believing that we have everything we need when we need it. This is just a season, this season is happening for a reason and we are trusting that this season will pass and we will move past it into another season of lessons...each one different. This season is fine tuning and preparing us for GREATNESS!!! I can't wait to see where we grow next!
If there is anything I would share with all of you...if what you love makes your heart happy, do more of that as often as you can...life is too short to waste a single minute. Believe me when I tell you, we have never gone without, our needs are always met, we never know when or how and we know in our hearts that as long as we follow our hearts we will be taken care of. Live like today is your last day...no regrets...doing what you LOVE, with who you LOVE, with as much JOY as your heart can handle, with PEACE in your heart knowing that you are doing your best, better yet living every minute with EXCELLENCE!!